The news is snapping up our attention
but the facts are lost in the noise.
The speakers and tweeters grab our cheeks
and turn our faces to their most
blatant lies and horrific facts so hard
that we fail to notice the grays on the edges,
and we see only sharp edges
of discord, blog-soldiers at attention
ready to come down hard
numbing us with more noise.
What we might fear most
is a mere slap on the cheek
or even a kiss on the cheek
because we are the ones gone soft at the edges.
We put on our most
determined look and feign attention
and add our clicks to the noise
because our lives are hard.
We pound our keyboards hard
but from real action we turn our cheeks.
On the streets we block the noise,
don headphones and skulk on the edges
trying not to draw attention.
We ignore those we should hold most
though what we hope for most,
the thing that is really hard,
is that our children need attention.
The tears run down their cheeks
and wet the soft edges
of their mouths which make no noise.
We must make some noise.
There are so many of us almost
forced to the very edge.
The fears will push back hard
but we won’t turn our cheeks.
We control our attentions
and we’ll make some noise about what’s hard.
The most meek among us will show their cheek.
Those on the edges will have our attention.
It entered as soon as I opened the screen door
and fluttered in behind my bed
and rested on the wall there
more restful than I. It was
a small white visitor to our family cottage
with a head shaped like a Robin Hood cap.
The next night it was there
on the ceiling, turning brown.
It was the spirit of my mother
watching while my daughter
tried the old face powders
still in the drawer
still smelling sweet
and none of us willing to toss them.
Celia tipped one cheekbone to the mirror
then the other, the way her grandmother would
when putting on my face for cocktails
or checking her hat for the symphony.
Later, the moth watched from the bureau
where I’d sniffed from my grandmother’s
glass perfume bottles long ago.
The next night the moth joined us
for bedtime reading in the children’s room.
Last night it was by the sink when
I went to brush my teeth for bed.
It was a giant among the multitudes
of lesser moths gathered by the nightlight.
The jutting head, like one of Mom’s crazy hats,
and large dark eyes worried me a little
though it was now very still,
its wings turning to powder.
Looking down from the high library windows
I watch the pigeons do their funky flap-flap-
flapping before they turn to glide in the air.
I finally feel the feeling I’ve missed
slogging at the base of the high-rise canyons,
dodging slush splatters from cabs whose
bright yellow looks like a warning.
I’m writing in a dreamlike trance
trying to enter the surrealist perspective.
I write about flying for the handsome Italian
professor of Literature and Political Ideologies.
This time I’m sure I’ve got something.
So I sit upright, later, in his office
and he rains down his approval.
Hands fluttering in gestures of generous favor,
he flips through the pages marked in red, Yes!
and finds the passage he’s sliced
into line segments and reads eagerly,
declaring, It’s a poem! and then I began.
She spends long hours in the squalor
of her room alone, surrounded by
inside-out clothing, open drawers,
half-burnt candles, books,
papers, paints and pencils
layered in snacks and dishes.
She’s trying on a her to find
the one she can live with, the
one that makes sense with her
lovely face, lithe figure and
the world seeming all wrong
with posturing politicians and
hungry bosses. Should she hide
in lumberjack shirts and thick boots,
or change it up with bleached hair
and jewelry? Wear something
tight-fitting, or sack-like?
She whisks by me, striding in her
styles, grabbing food to go,
taking my car, making me remember
all the versions I had tried
and kept or cast aside.
It is considered unlucky
in Chinese wisdom to
declare your child beautiful.
And how could a thing of beauty
have sprung from the brambles
of our unkempt garden?
My little weed sprouted early
and was slow to sink his roots
and reach his tendrils up
around the chain link fence.
No demon dragon should note
the very delicate touch
that aches his mother’s heart.
We gently bathe him and
train his leaves toward the sun.
He has already greened a deep
corner of our lives. But to you,
evil spirit, he is nothing. Pass by!
It starts out so quietly,
just a guy wandering around his house
and yard on a rainy spring day.
It’s not even a poem really.
But when it’s all over,
you may find yourself
mourning the loss of your father,
even weeping at the window.
The poem I thought I would write today,
full of spiky wit
and swipes at self-annihilation
melts into the fog of my own
mysterious gray day.
[see Where I Live, p. 130, from Sailing Alone Around the Room by Billy Collins]
Michael came out half-baked
and finished up in the incubator.
It took him a week to learn to suckle.
We spent hours each day in the NICU
kangaroo-ing him next to our skin
and learning CPR before we took him home.
I worried so much over everything I did for him.
At six weeks I worried he’d not yet smiled,
then realized he had no role model for smiling.
The nurse was frantically calling for a doctor
when Celia was born,
but she managed to break out on her own.
As she was being cleaned up across the room,
I summoned myself to address her:
Hi, Sweetie. I’m right here.
She turned her head straight to me,
strong-willed and ready. Lucky girl,
she basks in the love first forged by her brother.
After we’ve molded them and had
their edges smoothed by school and sports
we let our son and daughter go
to be fired by the world of work.
We peek at them through a tiny kiln door
and pray the heat is right—that they
will harden and not crack,
that love and experience will glaze
them gloriously, while we rest
well-used and chipped in our cupboard.
Sometimes something precious lies
quite close to you, but you don’t see it,
or don’t know its value, or know you want it.
Someone leaves it for you, or brings it
as a gift, some friend, some god.
My prayer for you is this: that
you will be a gatherer in times of abundance,
that you will be ascetic in times of scarcity,
that you will find joy in much and little,
and always be in harmony with what is.
Pump thrumming in the skiff house,
inflating the enormous tube
for kids to ride on behind a motor boat,
squealing with pleasure, teens
inventing tricks to tease grownups
and little ones. Come swim with us!
What’s for dinner?
Birds chortle. Sun burns.
Sweet grasses perfume the air.
If I could have this much beauty
and this old rocking chair
every day with good health
and the accompaniment of birdsong,
the sounds of purposeful movements
stirring in the cottage, mesmerizing
sun flecking off the waves and wakes…
If I could have just a few hours
maybe weeks, maybe then my
soul would give up all sournesses.
By Linda Haviland Conte
35 pages, side-stapled
ISBN: 0972246011X, $8.00
Ibbetson Street Press, 2002
25 School Street, Somerville, MA 02143
Life is not slow. If there is anything we come to discover as we live on, it is this. But sometimes, there’s a poet who comes along and grants us pause. Slow as a Poem is a lovely collection of moments bound together with the simple beauty of words.
I always used to shy away from poetry that relies so heavily on nature. But the imagery here goes beyond mere descriptions of beatific scenes. Conte mixes in aspects of meditation and uses nature as a teacher and also as a mirror. In these poems, nature reflects and reveals the qualities of both the poet and the people in her own life. She forms deep relationships with inanimate things–with the plants, the sea, the sky (“I am arranging animals out of clouds”), a boat, a book, and other imagined personalities. And many of the poems show how these things each contain an ability to heal, if one is willing to take the time.
The poem “Mom’s Time Out” is a lovely little poem about taking a well-deserved breather, with “symphonies of chirpers who don’t know / how to take turns, and I don’t teach them.” And “Immersion” left me wanting to dive right into the ocean myself. These words, these captured moments give permission to slow down and breathe. And slowing down refreshes and renews our spirits.
In the last few poems in her chap, Conte shares her hopes for people in general, and her own children in particular. “Child Home” projects into the next generation and muses about the quickness of life’s pace. One can either live life flying fast into the future quicker than it comes, or one can stop every once in awhile to reflect, as this poet does, on the simple things, all the colors in winter, the quiet moments that sometimes do float by, slow as a poem.
—Sara Medinger
The Boston Whaler rests in the slip ready
to perform the daily rounds: errands for Mom,
punctuated by wake-surfing adventures
and flirtations with the boys at the gas docks.
The hollow hull bobs on the river as I board,
making its friendly slurp and slap noises.
In the calm water there, a tiger-striped
perch darts back and forth, while a dull
rock bass puffs his big mouth and I wait.
A speedy motor-boat passes and
its wake rocks my boat and causes
it to press its bumpers into the dock.
In the distance a freighter plows
along the channel. A giant metal ox hoeing
a row in the St. Lawrence Seaway,
it dwarfs the triple-decker tour boat
passing on its port, full of sightseers.
The boat’s bench is warm from the sun and I bend
to tie my sneaker—an excuse for daydreaming
some more. A fresh breeze takes away the hot
motor oil scent, ruffles the surface of the water.
I am drawn to the chaotic rhythm of waves,
dazzled by the glory of shimmering light.
I am arranging animals out of clouds
when a crash of sandals against the gunwale
arouses me to the arrival of my big sister.
“Have you gotten the red water cans yet?
You are so slow!” Slow as a poem, I think
as she yanks the engine to a frenzied start.
He gamely tries to dandle my son,
his grandson, on his knee,
knowing I’d want that,
to see them together—
though next time we know
he won’t be strong enough
and I won’t bring my son.
He tries to tell me some story
from when he was young.
He knows I like those
and he produces a photo taken out
in preparation for our visit.
It must have been one of the first
cars his family ever owned,
a Model A Tudor Sedan, but
the people in the photo weren’t
anyone I’d have known.
A one-time Lieutenant Colonel
setting traps for Hitler’s forces
he quietly declares he’s tired,
and makes his way to bed while
Mom and I hover behind
lest he should fall.
